I have had trouble blogging lately. I have had the time and it has been on my to do list, but when I try I just haven't had the heart. The trigger of this was the death of Adam Guthrie in a tragic accident in Tennessee. Adam is my cousin's son, a young man full of life, a great football player in high school and college, one who had been visited by an angel, and one who believed. My heart aches over this and so, I didn't have anything to write. I just didn't have the words.
Yesterday at 2:00, Susan Nelson died. Susan was my thesis adviser at Pittsburgh Theological Seminary and helped a country boy like me read almost everything Mary Daly has written(not an easy task). She also guided me through a process of reflection and theological thinking that was authentic, deep and real. She had such a quick wit and wonderful sense of humor and was a joy for me to be around. I know that she shared this same gift with many not only at Pittsburgh, but also in California.
As I prayed about this, I never got an answer why Adam had the accident, or why Susan had brain cancer. I have had ranges of emotions (anger, denial, sadness, etc), but not answers. I had been working on a sermon on the 23rd Psalm (preached last week), so I read the Psalm again today. I still don't have answers to why, but I have assurance as my life journey walks by the deaths of these two wonderful people, I have a good and loving shepherd who walks with me. A Savior of Life who walks with me in the valley of death, darkness, and depression. A Savior of Life who I can say by faith, will restore my soul.
Until next time...Grace & Peace